4 years ago or so, I weighed alot. I mean ALOT. I think I was at my heaviest 265-285. (I honestly can't remember. Maybe I don't want to remember) I didn't feel good about myself. I mean would you?? With the help of some friends I started walking more, I was keeping a food journal. Once a week I sent the journal to a friend (who is a personal trainer) and she would tell me if I was doing good or bad, give me tips and what not. I made myself put EVERYTHING in that journal. Every day I would walk up Queen Anne Hill. Pretty soon the hike up got easier and easier. I will never forget the day when a co-worker walked up to me and whispered in my ear "girl, you need to get some new clothes, what you are wearing is just HANGING on you" I found that I could fit into smaller sizes. For about 2 years I did really really good. I was watching what I ate. Nothing too serious and never denied myself. I would do good everyday but one. That one day I was allowed to enjoy whatever I wanted. I was taking spin classes. I went to the gym everyday. I didn't see a HUGE change in myself other than fitting into smaller clothes. In my mind? I still looked the same, but I felt so much better. I didn't really notice a change until comparing pictures of myself from years previous. All in all in that 2 year time frame? I pretty much lost between 75-100 lbs. At my lowest? I was 185. Maybe it was 180. Still not the lightest girl on the block but I was happy. Really happy. Then? I lost motivation. I don't know what one thing it was....when it happened....I couldn't tell you. However in the past 2 years, I have put back on about 55 lbs. That isn't good. I am feeling it. I am getting older. I need to take better care of myself. Especially with all the wrecking and what not I do. I have hurt myself twice this summer and I am 99.9% sure my weight was a pretty big factor in that. I have gone walking a few times this summer but nothing serious. That will change. While I can not afford at this time to join a gym again, that doesn't mean I can't go walking. There are other exercises I can do on my own as well. I started up my food journal again. It is from a great website called fitday.com. I made the journal public so if you want to see mine, leave a comment. It will be a way to keep me honest. I have a goal. I want to be back where I was a few years ago. I know I will never be a super skinny girl, that is not my goal. I want to be happy with myself again. So here we go!!!

Posted by: Stacey at 11:51 AM
Category: Working Out